taking things for granted

my dear blog, i have abandoned you this month! it's been a little crazy but a good crazy i suppose. i think that this last month has really been a good time for me to reflect on my struggles, my weaknesses and strengths and to focus on myself. i need to realize that i need to be OK with being by myself and not necessarily with someone.

in the midst of it all, it's still difficult. i think i was meant to pour my love onto someone and i'm dumbfounded when there isn't anyone to do this with.

still, today sitting in church, reflecting on the blessings in my life, i felt convicted and guilty because i feel that i take many things for granted. i focus on all my wants and not on what i already have. it makes me feel very selfish. i am loved by my friends and family, but most of all, by my Lord and Savior, so what else can i be lacking? am i always going to be that person that wants what she can't have? hopefully not, and hopefully this will be a point of realization for me.

i don't want to hold back and i want to be thankful for all the blessings in my life. Lord, help me realize that i am lucky to have your love in my life.