faithful

Faithful is the Lord. In Him alone do I trust.

The Lord has been with me for ages, and even though I let Him down constantly, He is Mighty to Save, faithful counselor, my Prince of peace. In sitting down and talking to my parents today, I recognize that my future is quite uncertain and many things are up in the air. But despite all that, my parents reminded me that the Lord has been faithful in providing and I have never lacked a thing. I know that He will be even MORE faithful if I decide to be more faithful to Him as well. this is my heart's desire.

in reading a few of the Psalms today, Psalm 130 seemed to most fit this. David says:

Out of the depths I have cried to you, O Lord;

Lord, hear my voice!

Let your ears be attentive to the voice of my supplications...

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, 

And in His word I do hope.

God hears me and in waiting in Him, I will get my answers. 

but it's hard.

Today, I found pictures, notes, letters that reminded me of past times and I began to get sad and weep over them, wishing for those moments, wanting answers, having conflicting thoughts. But then I had a moment of clarity. I gathered myself and smiled, because at least I have wonderful memories of laughs and trips and friendships, and already that's more than most people. The Lord gives, the Lord takes away. Yet He is always faithful to supply what we NEED. Perhaps this is his sign to me that I NEED to find myself in Him, to love HIM, to love myself and then good things will come. The road ahead is long, the ocean is vast, and the possibilities are endless. 

Lord, I lay my life before you. Glorify yourself in me! Use me as your instrument, that I may make a difference in this world. Let no one or anything stifle the love that I have inside and let this love overflow in me!